When the Tuesday come, my heart will beat so fast because the time I want to rush and the day I had to face my English lecturer. I know she want a best success for her student but it hard for me to accept because my heart always angry, sad, and many feeling when her class is coming. I don't know what I have to prepared today. I just know that the book that we had buy must do it. Just do it for this class. I not hate English but when I thought English language is hard, my brain mind set that English class is tension class. I feel like to cry when I do something badly, I feel afraid to talk when my time is coming. Can you imagine it. I feel very scared when my English class coming. I just had a phobia sickness.